Danielle’s Story

My name is “Danielle”, I would finally like the world to know my story. I’m a 36 year old female with something to share with the world. I have 2 younger sisters that shamefully I did not protect from our father. I tried but the voices to protect myself sometimes took precedence. At an early age, I guess around 6, I had cousins and a brother that thought that I was beautiful. They would ask me to perform things on them that I knew nothing about. At the time I was not associated with pornography and did not know what it meant. They would show me pictures and say if I love them, I would do what these girls were doing. I agreed because I did not know that it was wrong. Later it would seem that this is a trait in my family. My father started when I was about 10. I loved my father and could not find fault with him. You have to understand we came from a big family, 7 boys and 5 girls.. So what we thought was love was lust in some cases. I tried to save my younger sisters from the shame that was dealt upon us when I found out that it wasn’t right. Our dad it seems had done this to his granddaughters also. My younger sister to this day blames Daddy, with reasons, for her life. I’ve forgiven him, along with my middle sister for the trespasses that he has done to us, but she cannot. But, in that same aspect, I have a troublesome marriage. My husband loves pornography and I will not have sexual relations with him. He loves his girls and I’m finding it harder everyday to forgive him. He knows what happened to me, but he continues on this path that I know will eventually end us. Please help if you can.